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[odaystar]

"Speak my name and I will hear it."
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[waywardscion]

I appreciate that, uh..

How are you? It was a little crazy around here .. I just, was .. I was wondering if you're alright?

[odaystar]

I'm well, Noctis. Or as well as ever.

I've managed to recover from the spell. How are you though?

[waywardscion]

I don't know, this is a bit much. I'm not the only one suffering, you are too.. the others here with me. I was wondering about you and your father.

I .. I've heard others here talk about being familiar with your story. I don't think anyone can really know unless we been there.

My friend, he's been sleeping for some time, I'm worried about him. San. I wonder though, if that's better because he's not awake for some of the stuff that happens here.

Have you ever been asleep like that, here?

[odaystar]

The story they tend to hear favors my father more often than not. I doubt you have heard anything good.

He's asleep? I suppose I can send someone to check on him, if you want.

I had to rest after the spell ordeal, so it may be that he has to recover more energy.

[waywardscion]

I appreciate it, the staff I asked said sometimes we go into those kind of sleep - some wake up and some disappear, but he's alright.. he's not wasting away, he just.. it's like time stopped while he slept, meaning he doesn't eat, drink.. go to the bathroom, he's just sleeping.

I think the victors can write whatever they want about what went down. I'm assuming you were on the losing end of the war, though.

[odaystar]

Only time will tell, I suppose. It isn't that unusual.

I underestimated my Father... I suppose that was my own fault. Or rather, I let my arrogance get the best of me.

[waywardscion]

So.. you're in this place for eternity? What sort of room does that give you to grow?

(Perhaps that was a bit of a projecting on himself as well. The fact that he felt inadequate to handle what happened on his world, to fight the darkness, to save his people, to keep those he loves alive.. if it's taken from him, like this, how can he grow? How can he get stronger, make better choices?)

I don't know.. him, your father, but I don't understand why he would let his son stagnate here in Hell. Unless this place is somewhere you can grow in.. if you can ascend from here.


Have I got it.. wrong?

[odaystar]

I was supposed to be... it was a punishment that was supposed to last for the rest of my existence.

At first, I was resigned to the fate, but... I want more now.

I hope one day that I will have redeemed myself enough to leave here. I hope we all may leave one day.

[waywardscion]

This cycle of suffering and torment, you're with us in it. To hear you have hope gives me hope too. If you left, where would you go?

[odaystar]

I would just like to go home, I think. I miss it.

You?

[waywardscion]

Home, I guess. I don't know if I can go back. I'd like to go back.. I haven't finished what I started and I left Eos in a bad state.

I think I'm the only one that can save it.

I kind of.. think you're the only one that can save this place.

[odaystar]

You'll get there. You'll get your second chance. I think you likely deserve it.

Do you really?

[waywardscion]

I know in my heart I want to believe that, even if I do.. it's hard for me to feel like I deserve it.

Yes, I really think so. I think you do want better for us. I've made friends here, I've even had fun here.

That has to go a long way from what this place was .. before? Eternal damnation and torment, I think one of the books said.. but that's not true.

[odaystar]

You know, they say it's all about the mentality you approach things. Try to believe it, it'll happen.

It used to be true, but it got rather boring... no forward movement, really. I think I rather prefer how it is now.

[waywardscion]

I think being here will make me stronger, that's what I believe. That's what I need.

If you do get to go home, what'll happen here? Will we all go home, ready or not?

[odaystar]

Would you choose to stay here if you could?

Or go somewhere else?

[waywardscion]

I don't know.

I feel like part of me deserves to be here. The other part of me wants to go back home and try and fix it.

You know Ardyn? You know what he did, right? He's gone now.. for some time. I almost miss him.. antagonizing me, like I deserved it..

[odaystar]

You can have both. Yore here to redeem yourself until you're worthy of returning home.

As for Ardyn... there are other ways down here to get punishments if you feel you deserve them. Even if it's just bit of verbal abuse.

[waywardscion]

...

Where?

[odaystar]

I'm certain some at the club specialize in it, even without the promise of sex.

[waywardscion]

(He nods. He doesn't say anything, but it's evident he's receiving this information, storing it.)

I'll.. I.

I'll check in with you later.